You know...the girls at work like to go out all the fucking time, and they're always begging me to go, I swear I'm supposed to go out to the bars every goddamn night...for a while it was even fun...lots of boys wanted me, and not cuz they were drunk, because they genuinely thought I was beautiful...they were coming into Pasquales to see me, one of them sent me roses to my job, etc...and here I'm thinking I must be something special, but I'm really not, because I feel less than nothing for these boys, and I'm just so sick of it. I'm sick of going on dates. I'm sick of the game, I'm so so tired. I'm tired of trying to make myself like people I don't, I'm tired of trying to make myself compromise for someone I don't really want...I just wanna curl up on the couch and watch movies and be held...I hate that I get sick of boys after an hour. But I never seem to get sick of him.